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.::.Who knew.::.
Promises, promises
He never did keep
And his constant nagging did cause a retreat
I must rethink my heart
And reset my mind
I've seen through the facade to which before I was blind
And now in the darkness by my window sill
I shiver as the wind and and your voice bring a chill
  [And realize the thought of loving you makes me ill]
Yet here I am, loyally, at your side still
If you hurt me again, it's the last time, I swear
Next time your glance to your side I'll no longer be there
Though I doubt you will notice, I doubt you will care
There are others to love
There are places to go
There are people, perhaps
To help me become whole
So if this is goodbye, then next time that we meet
I'll walk past without a word and my eyes at my feet
And possibly then you may finally regret
Not believing my words when I said
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Chinchilla by padfoot369 Chinchilla :iconpadfoot369:padfoot369 0 12 Strawberry Gashes by padfoot369 Strawberry Gashes :iconpadfoot369:padfoot369 1 10 Geisha by padfoot369 Geisha :iconpadfoot369:padfoot369 1 14 .:For you:. by padfoot369 .:For you:. :iconpadfoot369:padfoot369 0 9
I never thought
     (No, of course not)
That I would see that...
You know, the one that isn't faking it.
It puts all those years of practice to shame.
I never believed
     (It was too painful to try)
That I would find my...
The thing to make it all worth the struggle.
It's what leaves you wondering how you ever existed without it for so long.
I never wondered
     (It just never crossed my mind)
How life would have been had I just...
All That wasted time that could have been better.
I was so naive, so wrong.
I never found
     (Or more, I never looked)
A reason to continue this...
A mascarade is always fun.
Let's pretend everything is alright, no one will know the difference.
I never realized
     (No, it was denial)
How much I...
Let's keep it all inside,
Or you show me your scars and I'll show you mine.
I never loved
     (Love was fo
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Why can't I? by padfoot369 Why can't I? :iconpadfoot369:padfoot369 0 11 L-I-O-N by padfoot369 L-I-O-N :iconpadfoot369:padfoot369 1 15 I Am Finished with You. by padfoot369 I Am Finished with You. :iconpadfoot369:padfoot369 0 21 All for an Empty Hotel by padfoot369 All for an Empty Hotel :iconpadfoot369:padfoot369 1 18 Falling from grace by padfoot369 Falling from grace :iconpadfoot369:padfoot369 0 10 Dreaming about falling by padfoot369
Mature content
Dreaming about falling :iconpadfoot369:padfoot369 0 8
.::To Dream::. by padfoot369
Mature content
.::To Dream::. :iconpadfoot369:padfoot369 1 14
.::Messages in the Clouds::. by padfoot369 .::Messages in the Clouds::. :iconpadfoot369:padfoot369 0 11
I had a dream that I didn't wake up
   Stars and wishes collided head on
Making beautiful flashes of light in the sky...
It was nothing compared to my reality with you.
There were trees taller than skyscrapers
Rivers that reflected the sunlight perfectly
I believe I thought of you...
                  and how it used to be.
I started to miss you
    I called out your name
It echoed like thunder through the trees
But you didn't answer...
You never do.
Then everything went dark
   It started to rain
Refreshing tears from the sky
   I wanted to cry as well/
                               {Maybe just to
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  • Playing: World of Warcraft
  • Drinking: Tea
Sometimes love hurts, and I love you a lot.

Something is happening and I need a place to type my thoughts out so that I might be able to look at them and make some sense.

The love of my life has asked me to move to Texas with him. Oh yes, I want to go. I want to go and live with him and be completely emotionally fulfilled for possibly the first time in my life. I would love to stay with him, spend every morning waking next to him...  


Texas is a long way away. I've never lived more than 20 minutes away from my mother... and I love her so much. Staying in Florida would keep me financially secure but I would be emotionally devastated. I have a completely new and paid off car here that would be given to me eventually when my grandfather decided I have enough experience.

I would be unhappy staying. I would be unhappy leaving. The are both different types of unhappy... but they are both unhappy.

I've decided to go. I just hope it is the right thing to do. My heart doesn't want to live without out him.

So long, and thanks for all the fish.

I can keep rhythm with no metronome
No metronome
No metronome


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Amarao Featured By Owner Sep 20, 2006
I'm not clingy.

I'm not. >.>

Paddfoot Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2006   Writer
We share a username. xD
Your DA is better/prettier though.
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