.:I-NEVER:.

I never thought
     (No, of course not)
That I would see that...

You know, the one that isn't faking it.
It puts all those years of practice to shame.

I never believed
     (It was too painful to try)
That I would find my...

The thing to make it all worth the struggle.
It's what leaves you wondering how you ever existed without it for so long.

I never wondered
     (It just never crossed my mind)
How life would have been had I just...

All That wasted time that could have been better.
I was so naive, so wrong.

I never found
     (Or more, I never looked)
A reason to continue this...

A mascarade is always fun.
Let's pretend everything is alright, no one will know the difference.

I never realized
     (No, it was denial)
How much I...

Let's keep it all inside,
Or you show me your scars and I'll show you mine.

I never loved
     (Love was for the weak!)
But I couldn't stop the...

It doesn't make me weak though, I don't know anyone that can.
It's still a scary thing to face.

I never wanted
     (I was afraid)
You to prove to me...

It kept me awake at night.
I was always fearing our next meeting.

I always hoped
     (Yes, I truly did)
That someday I could see...

And then maybe I would trust,
Maybe I would become...

Me.